"...a kind of private and very personal battle I was engaged in..."

be playful LOVE every minute of it seek the Asymmetry in the Symmetry use good tools (sagemath / pen & paper) respect the ancients (Euclides, Diophantes, Fermat, Euler, Gauss, Galois, Erdos & co.) contemplate the essence of main actors (p, n, ζ, ...) and their governing principles (quadratic reciprocity, (cyclotomic) polynomials, ...) be ready that - if Truth demands it - You will fail as others (e.g. me) have failed

"...a kind of private and very person...
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